In a word…discouraged
Well, exactly what I thought would happen did directly after my editor looked over and marked up my novel. I lost my desire to write more. I think about all the time I put in just to feel like it’s not good or good enough for public consumption. Seeing all the blocks, all the nit-picking details requested, all the sections being written out and the sections requiring rewrite has effectively put a stop to my writing. If you have noticed, I haven’t blogged, I haven’t gone on Twitter, I haven’t pulled up any of my drafts to work on…. It just wasn't worth seeing all the red anymore. I haven’t even been reading and seeking new inspiration. And at the same time the world seems to be taking on black and white dimensions instead of the full color brilliance I am so used to.
I need to write, though. Even as discouraged as I am, I know in my heart and deep in my marrow that this is what I must do in order to feel complete. Has anyone felt this discouraged and off course before? Have you found your way back?
I could use a few pointers….